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While Lily is at Mass and Mother has gone to the airport to pick up Father, Jenna seizes her chance to get into the locked closet. She once again finds the computer with her name on it, but this time, notices that the other two computers have Kara and Locke’s names on them. Jenna realizes that the computers are brain backups, containing the information from the brain scans her father took of her—and apparently Kara and Locke, as well. Kara and Locke are in the dark, confusing hell Jenna remembers. That’s why they’ve been calling out to her—they want to be saved and set free. On the verge of a breakdown, she runs into the forest. When Jenna emerges several hours later, everyone is home. She confronts her father about keeping the backups hidden from her. It’s clear that Father thinks the brains are in a limbo-like “dream world” (200) and Jenna tries to convince him how nightmarish it really is. Father explains that if anything were to happen to “new” Jenna and her Bio Gel body, they have a backup brain and another chance. Thinking about Mr. Bender, Allys, and Ethan, Jenna realizes that she cares about her new life and wouldn’t want it all erased. Father continues with his explanation, telling her that while Kara and Locke will never have new bodies like Jenna’s, their brains may be needed in case Jenna is ever prosecuted for causing the car accident. If they had information that proved Jenna’s innocence, they would be witnesses. Death, Father tells Jenna, is now a thing of the past. That night, Jenna struggles with whether to keep Kara and Locke, in case she needs them, or rescue their brains from the “dark place” (205) they are trapped in.
At school, Jenna and her classmates watch a Congressional session on TV. Jenna wonders about her place in this new world and whether Allys would like her if she knew what Jenna was. Congress is debating the Medical Access Act, which would put medical choices back in the hands of doctors, rather than the FSEB. Allys is against this, blaming past epidemics and her own amputations on renegade medical science and organizations like Fox BioSystems, which Jenna knows is run by her father. After mentioning Fox BioSystems, something clicks for Allys. After class, she confronts Jenna, saying she knows who Jenna is, and about the accident. The girl in that accident, though, was not supposed to survive. Allys realizes that Jenna has been recreated from Bio Gel, something highly illegal and directly opposed to Allys’ moral viewpoint. Later, Ethan is worried that Allys will report Jenna to the FSEB, but thinks he can change her mind. Allys is not at school for the next two days, and Jenna begins to worry. She takes a walk to Mr. Bender’s house but is intercepted by Dane, who grabs her by the wrist and tries to violently drag her somewhere else. Jenna fights back, squeezing his genitals until he lets her go. Mr. Bender appears, carrying a golf club like a weapon, and he escorts Jenna away. At his house, Jenna reveals that she knows Mr. Bender is really Edward, an old friend of her father’s. She remembers his car from one of her seemingly-impossible infant memories. Mr. Bender admits that he is part of her family’s escape plan. Should anyone come for Jenna, he will take her to Italy, where regulations are more relaxed. They discuss Dane and his sociopathy, and Mr. Bender tells Jenna that she is human where it matters. He takes her outside and lets her wear his jacket. The birds, sensing Mr. Bender’s presence, land on Jenna for the first time. That night, Jenna wakes up screaming. She heard Kara and Locke’s voices in her sleep, calling to her for help. She finally remembers the accident.
Jenna remembers each detail of the accident and realizes that she was not the one driving the car—Kara was. She, Kara, and Locke all wanted to go to a party, but Jenna was the only one with access to a car. Though she was reluctant to let Kara drive her father’s car, Jenna eventually gave in and stole the keys. The party was boring and when a fight broke out, Kara, Locke, and Jenna got scared and fled. Kara drove too fast and accelerated too hard through a turn. The car fell over a cliff and Jenna remembers falling, landing, and hearing Locke and Kara moan and die. In the present, Jenna recognizes that the Kara and Locke stored in the computers in the closet are the only “people” who know she didn’t drive that car. She struggles with whether to keep them, knowing they are suffering in the dark. While going through the home movies, Jenna finds a disc still in the camera, hidden. In it, Jenna is dancing in her final dance recital. Her form is perfect, no foot or arm is out of place. Jenna remembers talking with Lily that night, admitting that she wanted to really dance, to break free of form and technique. Halfway through her recital, Jenna stops. She considers dancing the way she wants to, but ultimately finishes her routine just as she has been instructed, giving in to the idea of her own perfection.
Having had time to process what she’s learned, Jenna experiences major shifts in her viewpoint. As she reads Walden and thinks about Thoreau’s writing process, she realizes that the thoughts she is having right now “are not written down or uploaded into my Bio Gel” (193). Struck by all she has thought, seen, and learned since waking from her coma, Jenna is overwhelmed by gratitude. “I am thankful” (193), she says, “in spite of the cost, to be here” (193). This marks the beginning of Jenna’s acceptance of and appreciation for her new life, the one she herself has created. This revelation is followed almost immediately by Jenna’s discovery that she has a “backup” brain in the closet, as do Kara and Locke. The fact that she could begin a new existence with a blank slate further solidifies the value she places on her life as it is. “Which is the real me?” (197), she wonders, “The one in the closet or the one on the forest floor?” (197). She fears the backup because of what she has gained since waking; all those experiences would be lost to her if the backup was used. “Images flash through me. Ethan’s stormy eyes. Mr. Bender’s sparrows. Allys smiling...New images from my new life” (201). This marks Jenna’s first attempts to fully claim the new life she has been given: “I want to keep the Jenna I am now (202).”
Though she has previously struggled with her identity, Jenna finds new strength and meaning in the relationships she has created. While sitting in class with Ethan and Allys, she expresses her desire to “define my place in their worlds...I could burst in two with needing friendship on one side of me and love on the other. These are the definitions I need to refine” (206). This is a watershed moment for Jenna. She has left the cold, exact dictionary definitions behind and sees the need to create her own. She finally feels like she could have a place in the world, that she is capable and deserving of friendship and love, something all humans desire and need. She writes her own definition of herself and later on, decides that “sometimes definitions are wrong...identities aren’t always separate and distinct” (222). Jenna has moved from a world of absolutes to one of nuance.
Despite this, Jenna still doubts her humanity. Upset by Allys’ rejection, Jenna describes her own sobs as “wild. Like an animal” (211) and while walking, observes the eucalyptus plant, an invasive species, and wonders what they have “crowded out” (215) that was “more beautiful and important” (215). She is interrupted by Dane, who tries to drag her to some unknown location. For the first time, Jenna assigns animal-like characteristics to something other than herself, describing his eyes as “like an animal’s...empty to self and others” (216). With the help of Mr. Bender, Jenna escapes, having learned something important and valuable. Though she questions her own humanity, there are people like Dane who are more inhuman than she could ever be: “[Dane’s] shown me how empty a one hundred percent human can be” (216).
By Mary E. Pearson